Thursday, August 15, 2013

Working Towards Improvement

I wish I could say that I am about to grab life by the balls and run but I am a giant wuss and anyone who knows me knows that when faced with confrontation, I do one of two things:

A - I run...and I run far, far away!
B - I keep my mouth shut and say nothing.

Both of those things I truly am trying to address and work on and in some aspects of my life, I have applied myself and have not ran or have stood up for myself.  Now I am faced with an extremely difficult situation...

I love my job!  I really do!  I love the people that I work for/with.  Outside of work I consider my boss my friend and he has been there for me when I have had some rough times and I do genuinely feel like I can talk to him about anything that I need to...except this one little thing...

I have reached "manager" status yet I am not being paid as such.  I have a ton of responsibility and am relied on in so many different aspects yet I am making not much more than minimum wage.  I barely make enough to pay my bills with a little left over to make an extra (not very substantial) payment on my credit card let alone trying to save money so I can move out and live on my own/with roommate(s).  I just can't seem to muster up the nerves to sit him down and say something like

Listen, I love my job but I need to be paid more otherwise I will have to get a different job...
And ain't nobody got time for that!

So I probably won't throw in that last line but you get the idea.  I am in a tight spot here.  I live with my mom and step dad (which I know I have mentioned at least once or twice in the last couple years...insert note of sarcasm and bitterness).  My youngest sister just graduated from college and starts her Masters program here in a month or so and I have just recently been informed that I am losing my bedroom to her and will be sharing a room every other weekend with my step brother and step sister when they come to visit...heaven help me when it comes to Christmas when they are here for a week (because I know I won't be able to be out on my own by then).  I'm gonna try and talk to my boss on Saturday...I hope that I can.

Second part of this improvement process is getting back in shape.  I am almost ready to start working out again.  I have my core strengthening exercises and have had my last physical therapy appointment and hopefully in the next month or so I can get back in the gym since I have been paying monthly and not going.  I want to get back into running (slowly of course) and also get back to teaching Zumba at some point.  So my mom has finally broken down and decided that she wants to do AdvoCare 24 Day Challenge and I am doing it with her.  I am going to try and track my progress through my blog and see if I can somehow figure out how to add my Lose It! profile on here!

Wish us luck!  Order has been placed and it should be here by the 22nd and Momma and I will be on our way to better versions of us!  Stay tuned!

Until next time!