Random Thoughts...

* I have biceps again!!!  I started a 100 Day Push Up Challenge this month and I am on Day 17 today.  That makes 153 push ups...possibly 165...I could not remember if I did my push ups on day 12 so I did them again.

* I have been able to move around a lot more since finding out that there is NOTHING wrong with my knee.

* My ass hurts...and all I have done differently is this push up challenge.

* I hurt myself entirely too much...and about 90% of the time I do not know how or what I did.

Case and point...no clue what I did to my wrist!

* After a day from hell I managed to get about 12 hours of sleep Saturday night...which I totally and completely needed every second of...but have had a raging headache ever since.

* Friday marks the start of the next 31 Day Blog Challenge and I am bound and determined to completing it this time...no matter what!  Even if I have to write them during my half hour lunch at work because it is the only place I have Internet access...

* Thanks to my sister I have had nothing but Teenie Bopper music stuck in my head from the early 90s to 2000s...

Until next time!

Love The One You Are With...

Or love yourself if you are single...like me!  This time of year is not necessarily hard for me because I have never had anyone to make it special.  My ex husband's birthday is February 13th...therefore every year I got to hear about how he thanked his mother every year for pushing him out before midnight.  There was nothing I could do to ever make his birthday special.  Lord knows I tried though.  I have made it publicly known that I am far from girly HOWEVER I found that I need to hear that I am beautiful and needed and wanted and loved...blah blah blah...

I have never really had a Valentine or a date on Valentine's Day for that matter.  It would be nice to actually wear one of these dresses hanging in my closet.  Like last year and the year before and the year before that (and so on and so forth), I will be dateless and Valentineless.  I will be at work on Valentine's Day...I will wear my red work shirt (my hair is newly half-colored red) and I will just go about my day like it was any other day.

I very much wish that I had my special someone to spend Valentine's Day with but since I do not, I will probably stop by the store, get some chocolate cake and ice cream, come home and lock myself in my room and enjoy some wine...or a lot of wine...depends on my mood...

What do you have planned for Valentine's Day?  Are you spending it with someone special or just treating yourself like the special person you are?  Until next time!

Lost and Lonely

I completely fell off the grid for almost a month!  I could make excuses about the internet not working for a few days (which is completely true).  I seriously could not even check my email on my phone to see my prompts and write my posts in Word and have them ready for when the internet came back up.  I did try to catch up by writing my posts in Word but eventually I got too far behind that I decided to just hold off and wait until the March challenge starts.

I have been struggling with a ton of personal things lately.  Kind of fighting a bit of depression to be quite honest.  There are so many things running through my head constantly bringing me down.  At any given time, you will find me with a smile on my face but deep down I am a royal mess.  I save all my tears for when I am alone at night...trying to sleep.

I am not completely prepared to write about everything that is bothering me tonight...mainly because it is 11pm and I am exhausted.  Maybe sometime this week...until next time!

Vanished Into Thin Air!

I swear I have not been slacking on my blog challenge!  I have not posted Day 18 to Day 22 yet because my internet SUCKS!!!  Seriously!  Cannot watch Netflix...which means no "Shameless (UK Original)"...and trust me when I say that it is a MUST!  They are freakin hilarious!  So far I have only made it like four episodes into it but they are taking the US version and practically mirroring the original...which is so totally awesome!

On top of no Netflix, I cannot check my email...and my phone freaks out everytime I try to check it there.  Since I am waiting on a loser to respond to an email I sent him at the beginning of the month from my Hotmail account, I can only check it on the computer because my phone takes WAY too long to download apps now (have I mentioned how much I HATE my Droid 2?).  I am trying to avoid talking to him on the phone mainly because I want to keep things civil and if I can do all communication via email then I have time to re-read what I want to say and not sound like a douche myself.

No Netflix...no email...no Facebook.  I am actually not too worried about Facebook.  I am thoroughly annoyed with the fact that I cannot get the "Most Recent" option on my stupid smart phone anymore though!  Drives me NUTS!  Then there is the fact that lack of internet on my phone makes it extremely difficult to play "Subway Surfer"...which I have become totally addicted to since my nephew's birthday party this last weekend!

Okay...it is time to sign off and head back to work!  Hopefully I can get my posts all caught up tonight...if the internet cooperates!  Until next time!

UBC Day 17 - Close Your Eyes and Open Your Mind

Even on my days off, I never feel like I get to really relax and do nothing.  It always seems like I have something to do.  Some errand I have to run...some place I have to go...end up getting called in to work an extra shift.

When I get a day to really just relax and do nothing...I turn my alarm off...I shut my phone off...I wake up naturally.  I eventually make my way out to the living room where I curl up in my blanket and watch a few of my shows on the DVR...but honestly I feel most relaxed when I am dancing.  When I am practicing my Zumba moves on my own.  Creating my own choreography or working on getting a few new dances down.  The music just seriously makes everything else irrelevant.

Any worries or stress just melts away as soon as I start the music and start to move.  Dance has always been that way for me.  I was just in love with New Orleans partially because I could go out any night of the week and the clubs would be packed and playing great music and I would dance and not think about anything else.  Sure...being 19 years old and getting into clubs and not being carded buying drinks and shots was fun but dancing is really why I went out.  Not to get drunk because I could.

Now that I know that my knee is okay, I have stopped babying it and plan to build that muscle back up and get back into teaching Zumba.  I need to dance.  I have so much pain and stress that I need a release.  If I could not dance, I would run but right now I cannot really do either.  However I am totally ready to fully try my choreography that I created in my head and have yet been able to try out!

On the flip side, I also love to curl up next to a window with great light and a good book...a cup of hot coffee and a beautiful view...that is perfection as well!  The only thing that could ever make it better is having someone special there with me.  To peek up over the top of my book and see someone special sitting close to me doing something similar.  Eventually when I get my set schedule of Wednesday through Sunday work week back, I plan to find someplace beautiful and peaceful to go to and read on Mondays or Tuesdays.  Who knows...maybe I will walk onto a ferry and go somewhere and use the time and surrounding beauty to refresh my poetry!

How do you unwind?  Is there a special place that you go to and relax?  Is there a certain activity that just puts your mind at ease?  Share your secret you place!

Until next time!